I DID IT!

I have such mixed feelings about graduating and growing up.

I hadn't been emotional up until yesterday. I was fairly nonchalant about it all until I read the cards my family wrote me, and then it hit me. I'm moving away from my family, my greatest supporters for the past 18 years. Not having them there is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done but I'm trying to prepare myself for it. As extremely independent as I am, knowing that my family will be 6 or 7 hours away rather than a few minutes is going to be a harsh realisation.

Somehow, we'll all manage.

Well, it's officially summer! I'm so excited about the constant partying ahead of me.

Congrats to the Class of '06!!!!

omfg there are no words to describe last night

who the fuck won everything?

oh dear.

on a better note - i got my cap and gown today and finished my detention hours! HURRAH!! My family is so freaking cute. I left the house to go to a U. of Tulsa get together to meet new people and when I came back, my family had decorated the entire house and there are banners on the front porches lol they say my name on 'em too, it's cute.

Any seniors know the deal with school on monday? I am le confused.

I'ts finally sinking in that I'm graduating. I almost cried when I put on my cap and gown this morning.

My grandad is over from england and he wont stop crying lol best graduation present ever, i love him.

have a great weekend guys!

I'm feeling sentimental.

Life is good.

My friends are a.m.a.z.i.n.g

My family loves me

College is close

A fresh start is on it's way

I'm.so.ready.to.start.over.

prom was a.m.a.z.i.n.g.

i had the best date ever

my group was awesome - my 2 best girls friends and their dates, and then me and owens. pre-party at my house then more partying in the limo, then having to pull over so we could go pee hahaha and running through dillards at the galleria with no shoes on bumping into crap lol. Prom itself was fun, the singer was a little weird and creaped the guys out but we had fun. I completely ate it out on the balcony lol and so did chrissy haha oh well. We left prom early to go back to my house and party more, change, and go to jillians. I won $75 :) and ive almost spent it all. hahaha yay me.

After jillians we all came back to my house and had a slumber party in my sister's bright pink room lol The sleeping arangement was interesting.

Today, the guys and i did a whole lot of sleeping and watching movies. Then chrissy came back over and nana for a bit and we swam and drank margs and daqueris by the pool :)

You ever get that feeling when a big event has passed, one that you've been planning for ever and ever, that you have nothing to look forward to now?

Well thats kinda how i feel.

But hey, there's the banquet, then graduation, graduation parties, and summerrrrrrrrr

hope everyone had a good weekend

i know i did :D

In all seriousness i think i had the worst week of my life this week

today, i cocked up really badly and my parents are really mad at me. To make matters worse i feel horrible about myself.

I don't think ive cried this heavily and frequently in a while.

Tomorrow is prom and i should be beside myself with excitement (as i have been) but due to today's events they've left me feeling completely drained and all i really wanna do is get away.

i doubt anyone even reads this
and its probably a good thing that no one does
i dont know why i insist on posting my inner most thoughts on the internet for people i barely even know to read and judge me but for some reason it feels good to let it all out.... be it through the internet or some other means.

the end of the year is approaching rapidly and it's the time when all the sentimental feelings creep up on you and before you know it, you feel as though you want to hug anyone and everyone, even if over the years you've fallen out with them. It's finally hit me that I'm moving away. very soon. The best friends that i've had all through high school will also be moving away and now is the time when you find out who your real friends are. It's a scary time and I'm not sure i'm ready for the realization.

I need to get rid of all this stress somehow.
I think im gonna take a really.long.shower.

yah. that might work.